waibobe

Ross was a firm believer that you could not force circumstance. You could buckle your seat belt, but still crash the car. You could throw yourself in front of an oncoming train, but somehow survive. You could wait for years to find a ghost, and then have one sneak up on you when you were too busy falling in love with a woman to pay attention. To that end, he made the conscious decision to stop waiting for Lia. When he least expected her, that was when she would show up.

page 137, Second Glance by Jodi Picoult.

home alone today
felt relieved
i need shelter and protection
i need no distraction but concentration
i want to be me
i dun want to please

too bad the first roll of my angel cam didnt come out right.
has to try again for the second tim.

my thinking is clouded.
my heart is stoned.

can i be less stable?
can i take more risk and handle more changes in life?
can i be less stable but be ever-changing at the same time?
well like stable in ever-changing?
can this be attainable?

can i never want love?
or do i still want love?

can i not feel heart broken anymore?
or am i still feeling it?

Life is so complicated.
You had to take risks, follow some paths and abandon others. People who follow certain paths only to prove that they weren't the right ones, but that wasn't as bad as choosing a path and then spending the rest of your life wondering if you'd made the right choice. No one could make a choice without feeling afraid.  That was the law of life that no one could escape. Even if they never make a decision, even if they lack the courage to change anything, because that in itself was a decision, a change.

Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong, even a stopped clock is right twice a day.


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im waiting for my turn =]